Pathetic
That's all I feel anymore. I'm fine one moment, broken the next. Uncontrollable tears come streaming down my face and the guilt and pain and insecurities and anger and sadness and emptiness wash over me. I wear sunglasses most days to hide the fact that I have been crying. I have lost control of myself and my emotions. My perception of everything is wrong but I'm too scared to ask for clarity from anyone. I don't want to be alone anymore. I don't want to feel scared anymore. It's hard to write through tears but I'm trying. I'm trying to be better, I just want to be better but all I feel is pathetic.