Need Energy

For the first time I feel complete zapped of creative energy. I have had no motivation to write anything new. When I try to compose myself and scribble something down it just comes out as nonsense, gibberish that even I'm…Read more

Anxiety, You Whore!

Why is it that in the middle of a performance you decide that it's perfectly ok to punch me in the gut. You cause me to stutter and miss intros and forget words. I become so focused on how to…

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4 years later

Still I ask a bunch of the same questions.
Still I look for meaning in all of this mess.
Still I write songs and playing music.
Still I work through my demons.
Still I wrestle with my addictions.
Still I…Read more


Last night I found myself awake at two or three in the morning, just lying in bed, thoughts racing. In-between all these fearful questions my head was asking,   "Why am I alone?" "Why do I keep running from myself?"… Read more

Love comes when we need it

Love comes not when we want it but when we need it It can wash over us like a cleansing flood or annoy us like a pesky mosquito  The choice we have is how we react to loves presence We… Read more

Just A Thought

We have all had those moments where we are pursuing something for a period of time and we come to the realization that we are not getting any closer to that something. It's at this point we find ourselves at…Read more

Two Ships

I began to fall the day you decided to leave
Love had graced us but for a moment
And like two ships passing in the night
We sailed on with nothing but our sails waving goodbye

But my ship begin…Read more

Here's a thought

Sometimes love doesn't start off with a splash. Sometimes a slow trickle here and there that steadily gets faster and faster as it grows into a strong current flowing towards an ocean that is much deeper and wider than any…Read more

I think my time to leave has come

I think my time to leave has come
To push off into the unknown
To face the light would just blind me
So darkness shall be my keeper now

Maybe I'll find my peace
Maybe my soul can finally rest…Read more

New York

I have run away to New York City for the week to escape from what I can only assume is the depressing realization that I am about to turn 25. With only 11 days left till this deadline of adulthood…Read more